Dear Narcissist, Thank You!

The disappointment was so painful I soon started not to feel,

It was the only way I knew how to deal.

I ignored my emotions just to fit in,

Being popular was the only way to win.

Soon, there was nothing left but a shell of myself,

Like an old, empty picture frame pushed to the back of the shelf.

I never felt sad or depressed,

Because in my heart, I knew I was doing my best.

I never felt my life experiences were unique,

I thought everyone’s life was bleak.

I thought I was happy because that was the only happiness I knew,

But that all changed when I met you.

You were the predator, and I was your prey,

Once you sunk your teeth in, you thought I was there to stay.

You tore me down verbally until I felt so low,

I was convinced I was broken, damaged, and had nowhere to go.

You made me believe you were my only hope,

That you were the only one who was willing to throw me a rope.

I admit you are really good at what you do,

Your narcissistic infection was worse than the flu.

You isolated me from my friends and fam,

Convincing me that no one gave a damn.

You had me going there for a while,

I didn’t believe people like you existed; I was in denial.

I take full responsibility for my part,

After all, I gave you my heart.

I don’t remember at what point I opened my eyes,

But it was so clear, I could see through the bullshit and lies.

At first, I blamed you but that wasn’t right,

What I failed to recognize was you were the catalyst that pushed me toward the light.

You see, by you dragging me into the dark,

I was forced to ignite my own spark.

Finding my way out, I learned so much,

I learned independence, and that I didn’t need a crutch.

I must give thanks for the lessons that you taught,

These life lessons are priceless and can’t be bought.

Even though you caused me so much misery and heartache,

I stood strong, and I did not break.

Despite your valiant effort, my spark still shines bright,

I wish you well and hope one day you will also find the light.